Wednesday, August 1
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Life Is
There is no one meaning to life.
People want their already complex world to be a little less complex, so they ask for an answer to the big one. If someone, anyone -- religion, celebrities, mentors, history-- could just only answer this, there would be an outline to the randomness and chaos.
Life is everything. It is what you make it.
Life is spending your time on drugs and partying if you so choose. Life is fanatic dedication to job, fame, family or money, but life could be sitting watching cartoons indefinitely while world changing events are taking place outside your home.
With infinite possibilities and no assuring guide, I am that pathetic person who sometimes feels overwhelmed and unprepared for what to do with MY life. But I am not that person who has the ability or faith to turn to religion, celebrity, mentors or history. I want to know if I get a cookie for starting a family or a merit badge for making an old lady smile, but I wouldn't believe anyone who gave me an answer.
Tonight lying in bed, I’ve decided what meaning I want to bring to my life.
My life is to be greater than what was given.
Were you amazed when the smartest person in your class got an A; when the fastest won the race and the best looking got the girl (or boy)? To be better than what is natural is to be amazing.
I want to make my body stronger. I want to try to gain weight and be healthy (I have taken up cooking and exercise/weight lifting).
I am lazy, so I want to find a profession I enjoy so I can dedicate, study and dig for ambition I do not have.
I want to find a girl I can love and be kind to, relate and grow old.
This is what I want my life to be, the meaning I make from it.
Finally, I do not want to neglect what I find a little easier: to be good to my friends and love my family.
My midnight intoxication. Only morning will tell if this is a product of pillow delirium.
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