Sunday, July 31
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[journal] Even though in a previous post I wrote how I lost my interest in poker, I -- how should I put this? lied.

Only a day after the post, I ordered World Poker Tour DVDs and watched the pros play against each other. I also chipped in a good deal of cash (the amount will not be embarrasingly disclosed) to purchase real poker chip set. Thank god we didn't impulse buy the poker table we wanted (not by any of our own restraint; they were out of stock).

I tried organizing a poker game at my house today and emailed 6 friends. It was a total failure. Only Kevin replied, and this is what he wrote in his email, jow vu. Another friend on msn wrote, "You just want to take all my money." He sure called me on that correctly. Perhaps they all did.

I think my fascination with poker is in the small probability that I could have an irregular profession. I have doubts about my career as a teacher. I don't doubt that I wouldn't do a good job. I certainly would. But I think it would, at the same time, drain my spirit. It doesn't stimulate me in the way something that takes 50-60 hours of your week should. I also think I need a job where I can be anti-social if I chose to be. Most 9-5 jobs you gotta be jolly, jolly all day long. But some days I don't want to talk to you or to anyone and I would like a job that wouldn't care or judge.

I was joking with a friend about why it would be bad to date a professional poker player and we came up with some goodies:

1. Poker players often just rely on the math

"Honey, I'm sorry, I just never thought you would find out about that. I calculated a 95% percent chance that I wouldn't be caught. You can't blame me for odds like that."

or

"I wasn't totally sure you'd be angry. Something like 60/40."

2. Poker players have permanent poker faces

So when they tell you they love you or they are excited about your great news, they'd just have a flat expressionless face.

"I love you," or "I'm so excited for you" (spoken monotomously).

3. All poker players eventually go bust

Somedays it'll be filet mignon and escargot and others it'll be kidney beans with sugared water. Oh and sometimes the TV or car will go "missing, " and the electricity will be cut, and the newspapers not delivered, and....

Natalie Portman

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