Maybe it's because of my friend's suicide (found near the bottom of that page) or because my other friend has been writing about it on her site, but whatever the case is, death has been on my mind. The only conclusion I've come to is that all this heaven and hell, happiness and misery has nothing to do with death and everything to do with life. It's obvious that we make the world we live in sometimes heaven and sometimes hell. We create pain, pleasure, hate and love. No -- we lavishly lay on the pain, pleasure, hate and love. But these are all things created in this material world. We assume that things like that exist in our afterlife with no evidence to support. This physical-emotional vocabulary is a living construct only understood in the context of living. Death cannot be captured or described by our limited experience. It is similar to how some words in some languages simply cannot be translated, and I believe death can't be described or understood by someone who is alive.
But try to understand, I did, and my one idea stems from the fact that there seems to exist a cyclic universal. Things go up and then down and up and then down. People grow bigger then smaller then bigger. Things blossom and then fade then blossom. So from this I gathered that death, if it can be explained, is similar to prelife. Could you explain if you were happy before you were born? Could you say if you were in heaven or hell? No, you simply can't explain it, because it is so beyond our level of understanding, so out of explanation from our limited vocabulary. With prelife there is nothing physical; we had no arms or legs or noses or mouths. With prelife there was no emotion; we had no sensations or thoughts. We were simply not to be. Death, in my opinion, has got to be similar. Why would death be an extension of life when 1. there's that cyclic nature I talked about and 2. our prelife has been a lot longer than the anomaly our lives could ever be.
The reason why people want to believe about heaven and hell and happiness or misery is they would surely embrace the idea of even hell and misery over the idea of nothing. I mean, what the hell (pardon the pun) is nothing? To them, nothing scares them more than any emotional or physical torment from hell. But the truth is did prelife scare the shit out of you? People are only scared because they are thinking in their limited terms of life. When death actually comes their way and this nothing becomes clear, like a term in a foriegn language, they will just to be again.
I think Buddism and their state of nirvana or state of nothingness most resembles death. So does Nirvana = Happiness = Death?
